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There are times when I feel that everything would be a lot easier to do in life if there were no emotions involved. Imagine if you had to tell someone that you loved them without the fear of heartbreak, or if you could face your father that had been cheating on your mother for the past year without the fear of family abandonment and divorce. I mean, just speaking from my personal experience, if I never had to face negative emotions again I would become the most invincible person EVER! Fighting the forces of darkness with my sidekicks happiness and love! Although the thought of a wonderful spandex suit and abnormally large muscles does sway my opinion, being invincible would ultimately become my tragic flaw. Being emotional is what enables us to be loved by ourselves and by others.

When we are able to confront our fears of sadness, rejection, and hopelessness we open ourselves up to being graciously cared for and loved. Facing our emotions is what keeps us so emotional and being so emotional is what connects us to each other. Being emotionally connected to each other allows us to listen to each other’s stories, tell our own, and embrace our similarities and differences with open arms.

Isn’t that what we want anyways? To be cared for and loved in the purest sense of the words?

My story is long and full of heartache and despair and even though it hurts to recall and brings tears to my eyes, it’s a story that I’d love to share with you someday.

Love you always.

S.H.